It starts today, for the 100th time. How many times have I said that to myself ? You know there was a time I felt amazing, full of life. I had so much energy, I was happy. So what is it that changed ? I am just simply not living a healthy lifestyle. At all.
As of right now I am about 30-40lbs overweight. I don't have THAT much to lose, so it is all cosmetic right ? I wish that was the case. I feel horrible all of the time. I am tired, depressed, I don't want to leave the house. I am embarrassed to be seen in public. I feel like everyone is looking at me, judging me. It is all a vicious cycle, I am an emotional eater. I hate the way I look and feel, so I get depressed and I eat. But food can literally make you feel better. This is a scientific fact. Ok so I know what the problem is, so I can fix it right ? I wish it were that easy.
If you are reading this and struggling to lose weight, you will understand the internal battle that comes with trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Is it about looking good ? Yeah maybe a little. I am not going to lie, for me that is what it was always about. Not anymore. I want my life back. I want the brain fog to go away. I want energy to play with my kids. I dont want to feel so depressed. I simply don't want to feel like this anymore.
So today I am making a commitment, no more saying things like "I will start tomorrow," I will not wait. I can't. I am going to use this site to keep me accountable. I will blog everyday, Even if it just a single sentence. I will write about my struggles, or simply whatever I am feeling.
I know it is a Cliché to say that this is a journey. But for me it really is. I have to make sure that I remind myself of that, every single day, otherwise I will fail. I know because I have failed before, and I don't want to fail again.
My Diet Is Going Wild
So what am I doing ? I am planning on eating better obviously, I will be following the "Wild Diet." by the Fat Burning Man, Abel James. What a bunch of crap right ? I mean its a diet and the dude just wants to sell books right ? Yeah maybe, but we all need to make a living. The principals are sound though. You cant argue with the philosophy he preaches. He has a great podcast, with great guests that I always seem to learn a little bit more from each episode. The other reason is the community he is building around the program. The Fat Burning Tribe is a great community of people who are all looking to feel better, look better and be healthy. But more importantly, they want to help others. That is what I need. Support for this journey.
Division 1 Training
For my training I will be trying out a new gym called D1 in Raleigh, NC. I will be writing about my first day tomorrow, if I can move my arms.
One quick note: I am not a good writer, so be gentle on the comments :)