Finding Balance

Dualtiy

Duality: An instance of opposition or contrast between two concepts or two aspects of something.
— The Oxford Dictionary

I have a tattoo, It is pretty complex, it is a Japanese scene with a dragon bursting out of a waterfall clutching another ancient symbol, the Chinese Yin Yang Symbol. It is bursting with multi-cultural symbolism.  The water dragon is a symbol of power, energy, creativity, and masculinity. It is also known to be a protector. Hence the reason it is clutching a symbol for balance and duality.

The Yin Yang  

There is no more perfect symbol for balance. The circle represents the universe, then there is an 'S' shape symbol in the center dividing the light and dark. Within each side there is another small circle of opposing color. For me, this is balance, and to reaffirm the belief that in life there is no single way of living, there is no one way of thinking. In the darkness there is always a little bit of light. And in the light, there is always some darkness. In happiness, there can be a little sadness, In condeming there can be forgiveness, and so on. It keeps us balanced. For a deeper definition and understanding, head on over to  http://feng-shui.lovetoknow.com/Ying_Yang_Meaning

Deep.. I know right ?

So what does this have to do with eating right or fitness ? I have always beat myself up for small failures, or not working out.  If I had a bad day, I would feel like the whole world was against me. I could do no right. I would never let happiness in.  I simply shut down. Give me food, let me sit on the couch. I failed. A week would go by where I ate junk,  or did not exercise simply because I feel like I needed to be 100% perfect, so I stopped to prepare myself to start again on a different day or week. I didn't need to do that. I need to remind myself that it is ok to feel this way. It is normal and honestly, healthy to have little setbacks or to not be perfect every single day.  Having a baseline of feelings in which to base the opposing feeling is not a bad thing. I didn't fail. I am living. No more punishing myself for not being perfect. 

D1 Part Deux

Today I am heading out for my second D1 torture session. I did my first workout on Monday, but I wanted to not rush into this type of killer workout again. Last time, as I mentioned before, was Crossfit. I overtrained and got injured.  Wish me luck ! I will post an update tomorrow.