Not a failure.

I didn't post yesterday. I had a crazy day. A stressfully one. I didn't eat well, I didn't excersice, and I made the mistake of stepping on the scale.  I felt like a failure, up 4 lbs. Yeah maybe it is water weight from muscle repair, after all, I have been working out. But, more that likely it is because I am still not eating 100% the way I should. I am eating fairly well, but too much of it. 

Part One

I feel awful today, I am sluggish and kind of depressed.  I was supposed to write about my new cool gym tools but I just didn't have the energy. This is why I started this blog. I didn't want to fill it with fluff and fake positive quotes. I want it to be real. The good and the bad. I want to be 100% honest and lay everything out. I am writing this a few minutes before I sit down with my team at work and to be honest I am just not motivated.  There WILL be a part two today after I get to the gym. I normally shut down and don't go, or have a really bad workout. Fingers crossed.