I stopped blogging. But why ?
It was been about a year since my last post. Kinda funny that it was almost a full year give or take a few days. Today I woke up with some type of weird clarity. The kind that I started having last year when I decided to start blogging in the first place. Ok, so what has been going on the last year ? Plenty.
A New Home
Last summer we built a new home in Apex, NC. Such a big change from New York, but I love it here. Don't get me wrong, there are so many great things about New York, but my family and I needed a change. Fast forward more than a year and we are living in an amazing neighborhood with great new friends and a beautiful new home. Not everything was easy though. The stress of moving took a toll on me, it affected my job, my family, everything. It was not about missing New York, it was about taking on more that I could handle. New job location and building a new house proved more stressful that I was wiling to admit.
Ok let me start by saying I don't blame everything on my company, I was no doubt distracted. But I learned the difference between a leader and a boss in the last year and a 8 months. I had a boss. I guess it would be easy to just blame everything on him, but like I said, I take half the blame.
During the last few months I was worried I was going to get fired, heck, I was positive. I was given a verbal warning which I was shocked by, even though I was distracted, I did my job and was successful. There was no real discussion, no mentoring. Just a list of everything he thought I could do better. He was clearly making a case. I am not going to make this post about my old job, I could write a book about it. As I said so many times before, I eat when I am stressed and that, is what I did.
The Grass Is Sometimes Greener
People will tell you the grass is not always greener on the other side, for me so far, it is. This month I started a new job, it almost seems too good to be true. My manager is awesome, everyone is there awesome (insert the lego song here.) It has been a few weeks now and I am hoping that everything stays this way. Things are starting to look up.
Eating Struggles And Workout Woes
My diet has been crap. Mindless eating. There is no other way to explain it. Heavy meals containing breads, pastas, wings, snacks and whatever else I wanted. I didn't event think, I just ate it. All of it. Working out has been a struggle too, I have not been to the gym for about a month. No energy, no drive, nada. I wish This was a rah-rah moment where I tell you that I have made this big change, but to be honest, I just ate a Kit-Kat. I feel like I need a change. I need to make this happy. I always said that I need to do it for the right reasons, that I need to be ready. Wish me luck.