What happened ?

I stopped blogging. But why ?

It was been about a year since my last post. Kinda funny that it was almost a full year give or take a few days.  Today I woke up with some type of weird clarity.  The kind that I started having last year when I decided to start blogging in the first place. Ok, so what has been going on the last year ? Plenty.

A New Home

Last summer we built a new home in Apex, NC. Such a big change from New York, but I love it here.  Don't get me wrong, there are so many great things about New York, but my family and I needed a change. Fast forward more than a year and we are living in an amazing neighborhood with great new friends and a beautiful new home. Not everything was easy though. The stress of moving took a toll on me, it affected my job, my family, everything. It was not about missing New York, it was about taking on more that I could handle. New job location and building a new house proved more stressful that I was wiling to admit.

The Job 

Ok let me start by saying I don't blame everything on my company, I was no doubt distracted. But I learned the difference between a leader and a boss in the last year and a 8 months. I had a boss. I guess it would be easy to just blame everything on him, but like I said, I take half the blame. 

During the last few months I was worried I was going to get fired, heck, I was positive. I was given a verbal warning which I was shocked by, even though I was distracted, I did my job and was successful. There was no real discussion, no mentoring.  Just a list of everything he thought I could do better. He was clearly making a case.  I am not going to make this post about my old job, I could write a book about it. As I said so many times before, I eat when I am stressed and that, is what I did.

The Grass Is Sometimes Greener

People will tell you the grass is not always greener on the other side, for me so far, it is. This month I started a new job, it almost seems too good to be true. My manager is awesome, everyone is there awesome (insert the lego song here.) It has been a few weeks now and I am hoping that everything stays this way.  Things are starting to look up.

Eating Struggles And Workout Woes

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My diet has been crap. Mindless eating. There is no other way to explain it.  Heavy meals containing breads, pastas, wings, snacks and whatever else I wanted. I didn't event think, I just ate it. All of it.  Working out has been a struggle too, I have not been to the gym for about a month. No energy, no drive, nada. I wish This was a rah-rah moment where I tell you that I have made this big change, but to be honest, I just ate a Kit-Kat.  I feel like I need a change. I need to make this happy. I always said that I need to do it for the right reasons, that I need to be ready. Wish me luck.